sorry, didn’t meant to quote the last paragraph…

Last night was good and bad.  So i decided to make dinner with my daughter like my girlfriend suggested.  When my daughter got home, she came out to the shop with me and hung out for a bit until my girlfriend got home.  Then we went to the st0re for dinner food.  So, this is when it started….  My girlfriend likes to feed her kids at 5:30 and have them in bed by 7:00.  I’ve never done that with mine, the earliest we’ve ever ate is 6:30 and in bed by 8:00-9:00.  So….  My girlfriend didn’t get home until 4:30 or so because she had to take her daughter to the doctor.  So  my daughter and I didn’t leave the house until 4:45, then we didn’t make it home until almost 6:00 from the store.  We made dinner together which was fun, but didn’t have dinner on the table  until 7.  My girlfriend was a little irritated because it was so late, but she got over it.

after dinner, my girlfriend and I went out for a smoke, and she was telling me how she’s always been super anal about keeping the kitchen clean, especially right after dinner.  Well my daughter and i rinsed and put dishes in the dishwasher as we were cooking, then after we ate we all watched the end of a movie.  I had planned on cleaning the rest of the kitchen with my daughter when the movie was over.  Instead my girlfriend cleaned it all up instead of watching the rest of the movie with us, then she got all pissed off at us/me because we didn’t do it.  She was pissed because i was with my kids!  Her son was in there with us too!  She was the one that decided not to join us and go crazy in the kitchen.  She was livid pissed off too.  I almost told her last night, maybe we aren’t compatible, maybe we aren’t supposed to be together.  But I bit my tongue because I don’t want to rock the boat too bad until she starts working this new job.  OH, she even said this in spite “maybe on the weeks you have your girls, you can be with them and I will be with my kids, then on your off weeks you can be with us”  WTH!  She is behaving so irrationally and like a child, it is ridiculous.  She brought up my ex-wife and her partner again last night.   She definitely has some serious issues to deal with.

It sucks because i would love it if it would work out, but I can’t live like this.  Constant questioning, tip toeing around because I didn’t do this or that or my kids don’t act the way they should with her or what ever.   I’m definitely going to say something.  Timing is everything, i know that.  But I need to say something soon, because if not I am the type that will just loose my shit and tell her to leave.  I don’t want it to be like that.  I want her to understand and be able to work with her situation.

I feel so shitty an selfish.  At the same time, everything that went down with my ex and I is becoming more and more clearer.  If I was acting this way or similar when she was dealing with her kids…  WOW!  No wonder she left me.