hey Anita

yeah I know and I completely understand his decision I have a child and settled where he wasn’t he was 3 years younger than me and never had a relationship. I believe that he was truly in love with me but I also get that it was very early stages to make such a big choice maybe if the opportunity had came later on input relationship it wouldn’t of happened of how it did..

truthfully I was a bit of a dick lol we went out for several drinks with a group of us and would cause arguments about it. I would cry and blame him. I would act sometimes cold because sort of a wall came up after being hurt badly 4 years ago and never been near man afterwards I sort of got anxious and acted the wrong way. but that was only for about a month before he went away the relationship was for about a year so we did have all the good times while it lasted but then it hit me.

I know I pushed him away at the end but I was trying to get the separation subconsciously and only see now that I did that.

do think about him everyday and usually its just because I hope he is okay andhappy and miss the friendship we also had but there’s the odd times I just feel completely shattered.

x