Yes I am afraid, a lot..its truth…the thing that I am doing now is to going to a psychologist and to my work. I started reading books that I like and see movies/series that I love. My job is in different town than my own and it help me to be away from house because I am started realise that I did well to start a full time job.

Now about the narcissist mother..I have no words to describe her…although she was a good for growing up our family, she was always compare myself with other girls on my age and school, that they were better than me, that they got married before me and they have families, that I always made poor choices on my relationships, and of course controlling, and competitive person toward her sisters and among us with other childs. She wanted to be someone else, someone that she admired, like teachers, or high level job positions. And of course everytime that I was sad was the first person to criticize me. And money I felt that was above me instead of being me above money. Because when I left my job she was so sad that I loosed the money that I gained instead of get well from depression.

What else want me to say?

Thank you,

Elli