Hey Kkasxo, morning from sunny Thailand! I would talk travel all day so I try not to as well aware this isn’t about me and how annoying some people can get going on about it all in an irritatingly happy way 😉 But yes, it is an amazing experience, it’s something I worked hard to give myself the opportunity of doing, not knowing if I would enjoy it or not but wanting to try – and I’m loving it! Travel is interesting, I personally wouldn’t do it full time as it’s knowing I have my own home to return to if/when I want that lets me fully enjoy all the differences and getting fully immersed into local life, which is what I enjoy most about new places. So I can totally understand needing your own space and the relief it must bring to have your family now supporting you in this whilst you get towards working out your own way forwards.  Yes, I think the first of anything is always more intense emotionally, so next year’s trauma weekend you will already have a sense of ‘well, I survived the first one, I just need to do the same and I will survive it again’ – there is less power in it to harm you once you have taken some of the fear of the unknown out of it, like anything really.   Although you call it autopilot, it is also remarkably freeing and calming to be back at basics, getting up, washing, eating and not thinking too much beyond for now – learning when and what your ‘full’ signs are ( I always end up envisioning the wolf/coyote from Roadrunner cartoon here, which will be lost on most people but always makes me smile.. )  cutting back when you reach them is one of the best things you can do for yourself – something Shelby it sounds like you are reaching now??

Off to explore our new village now…….will check back in later – have to say, wi-fi here is better than Norfolk!!