You are absolutely right in your understanding of the situation, Anita. I may have been angry even before the procedure, and it more than I can admit to myself. I love him so much and I have tried to understand at the heart level him not being there physically. Him leaving me on the phone made it worst and I felt like he couldn’t be there for me throughout the whole thing. AM I being unreasonable? What do I do? I don’t want to lose him and I don’t want to hang on to this anger.