Dear Megan:

“I feel that I am more attracted to girls than guys, and as a girl, I know this would make God extremely mad”-

-from my understanding of Christianity/ the bible, god holds a person responsible only for the choices that they make, that is, the behaviors they exercise, not for their feelings or inclinations. For example, in the garden of Eden story, god held Adam and Eve responsible for eating the apple, not for desiring the apple. So I figure, for as long as you don’t act on your attraction, you are in no way in trouble with the god you believe in.

I suggest that you see a pastor, or a religious leader and talk to him or her about this very issue, someone with a reputation of being sensible and kind. Make sure before sharing that it will be confidential. Then ask about choosing a behavior vs. experiencing a feeling/ emotion. Ask more questions.

I hope you feel better soon and that your conflict is resolved in a way that you can live with in peace.

anita