Hi B!

Thank you for your advice, and kind words.  I love the community here! As I said to JayJay, it’s nice to get the “it’s okay that you’re feeling this way” from someone else.

The friend who walks all over me, well yesterday, I decided to send out a message, telling her I didn’t like the way she treated me and that I’d really appreciate her being mindful of how she is saying things, that, malicious or not, it’s hurtful and I don’t appreciate it. I’m not sure she was very accepting

I want to live a happy life, and have it filled with uplifting people – people who want the same things as I do – to be happy, and provide light to this world.

Misery loves company, I suppose.  I’ve always struggled with putting myself, and my feelings first so it’s been a journey the last few months. I’ve really realized who in my life is happy for my advances, and who are.. jealous? I don’t want to say jealous in a way to inflate my ego, but maybe wishing their lives were a little different.

I’ve worked hard to get to where I am – I used to be a very unhappy and depressed person.  I don’t want to go back down that road again (Not that there is anything wrong with being depressed) It’s just that I’ve done a lot of soul searching, a lot of growing and I want to continue growing – even if that means, some of my friendships don’t come along with me.  I want to be able to say goodbye, wish them well, and maybe reconnect when things align better. Does that make sense?

Love and Light – S