Hey Kkasxo – ha, well, at least you & Shelby will enjoy my book if I ever get around to doing anything like that, maybe yet.  You are both way too kind though!!  Found a wonderful hidden pagoda today, odd mix of monk’s doing their praying, school kids running around and scooters everywhere – just so Asia……

But in the meantime, yes, I figured you were putting it off hence the question as to why and subtle (?!) push as to if that is what will be best for you. Curious though – hand on heart honesty time, do you think you will be happier settled in a place with or without this guy? Are you happier now you are back together from what I can tell? It’s just sometimes I can’t help but get the impression he is a bit of a drain on you, someone else to look after whilst you are low on energy yourself.. Perhaps that is why it feels like you won’t get the fresh start/space that you can feel you want & need but that at the same time that  is the scariest option to acknowledge. I can get that.

But either way – pretending you have more time when you don’t is just going to put you under more stress later. Bite that bullet, give yourself an earlier deadline and honestly, just starting to deal with it will take so much of the fear out of it.  If I was you and wanting to test if he is serious – find somewhere suitable earlier than later and go for it – the worst that can happen is he bails on you & your fears are confirmed. But at least then you still have time to deal with it practically. Not wonderful but better than the alternative. Remember – we can only deal with the reality in front of us – all the wishing & hoping in the world won’t change things, only our actions. Time to pull proverbial head out of the sand and deal with this one….