I don’t pick fights anymore and he is more understanding and didnt get mad at me like when we were texting in ldr.

My anxiety doesn’t make me agressive anymore.. it makes me feel hurt, guilty, I have no reason to get mad at him anymore.

I haven’t attended psychotherapy because I can’t afford it. I feel like my anxiety with him right now is because I feel we are too different in some ways. Like he has jokes that I don’t like and kind of make me anxious even though he’s not being mean he is just joking and also the fact that I feel that he doesn’t really understands how I feel and see things because he sees them differently. And also the fact that most of the time we don’t agree on things and have different opinions on trivial things, not the important ones. But it still makes me anxious. Me and my father have a similar relationship, he most of the time disagrees with me.

Being understood and having someone that feels/thinks the same and agrees with me for real, makes me feel close to that person.

Maybe here lies the problem. But I think that it’s not worth to give up on him especially because I am very emotionally attached to him and he is a really great guy for me.