Kkasxo, thanks so much. Yes, it’s hard to make sense of anything when I’m in the middle of so much grief. Everything reminds me of her, I’m thinking of her constantly, and it’s just…so painful. I’m going to have to move out of our apartment in a couple of weeks and I’m really, really dreading that, but also trying to remind myself: one day at a time, I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.

I’m still catching up on your story, but sounds like you’re going through a pretty tough, intense and scary process right now too, looking for a place with your ex/current partner. Thinking of you and sending you a little peace, if possible, and lots of strength.