Hi B,

There’s a feeling of wanting to move on and grow from your last post. You wrote “I hope one day I will just be free mind body and soul of anything to do with him.” The good news is that you can, however, there’s effort and training required to slowly free yourself from any mental defilements that you are experiencing, which will help you navigate the troubles of life.

You hear many people on here say that you need to let go and you’re attached. But I feel many don’t understand what exactly that means. I’d like to invite you to take a step and listen to a talk on YT from a monk, Ajahn Brahm titled “How to deal with abusive relationships.” Keep an open mind when you hear this. Also I hope you take the steps to learn about yourself, because the most important relationship you’ll ever have is the one you have with yourself. If you cannot have one with yourself, how will you with someone else.

good luck