i dont know, i have extreme trust issues after something else that happened to me

i know there are certain people you can trust absolutely…but they’re elusive.  most people .. i dont know what their motives are

a LOT of people maliciously stalk and try to ‘bully’ me now and im having none of it

i refuse to be upset for anybody, or even acknowledge it

i get into heavy heavy heavy meditation and journaling 24/7 now

im really conflicted about how to process my hatred of ppl now

i have my own beliefs, conflicting with others, (southerners) im very ‘radical’, but mostly i want independence, my mind and pride back, i dont want kids or family just PEACE, my art, my writing

reeeeally conflicted about ppl, they’re very nasty

im very isolated

what are you SUPPOSED to do when 90% are like this

like they allll fucking demonize you?

im extremely used to isolation, but loathing ppl is new

i didn’t used to until this happened to me

so many things

i refuse to kill myself REFUSE i clawed like mad to escape

so fucking hard

i dont want to become angry/hateful but ppl are such vampires