Dear anita

I am going save her the frenziedness and ease my way out. And no one will choose for me. Despite everything I have always been the one making decisions – I’ve noticed my mother can’t make decisions, she is not strong enough to take responsibility. That i have managed to learn from her. I am more structured and can make decisions or rathers choices based on what i want – but I think the fear that i may regret it later – comes from seeing my mother never taking action, that she stayed to avoid something worse happen.

And calm is my motto now. It is so valuable. I want to remember this week forever. It was beautiful. It was so ordinary yet my mindset made such a huge different. I felt COMPETENT anita! And I spoke to the new intern as she looked flustered and I could relate to her. She thanked me for the motivation and I felt so content – that I was able to do for her what i really needed for myself back then and that it made a positive difference. I am happy being who I am.

Girija