Anita,

i feel relief that he was not sleeping around but I feel like a complete moron.  I mean I’m sitting on his couch with his dog at my feet who loves me for some reason-an 85 pound German shepherd. And he is pissed about my hurtful text messages. Because I knew what to say to get to him.  I felt like a child. But I told him- you sit in that chair of yours and you manipulate people and control them. I said you knew I was desperate for any type of attention or affection I was in a bad place.

I told him this morning I was sorry about what I said about his daughter and literally ran out of his office.  He said it’s ok. A man of so many words.

My anxiety ruins everything.  It’s like a monster out of control.

Lindsey