Hello Anita,

I posted The Ugly Truth to get release and peace.  This is a very difficult and sensitive subject to talk about with friends, family, or even a counselor.  Yes, seeing those images at a young age did affect my life, however, it does not remove responsibility of my actions.  I did not physically cheat on my wife until last November.  I have had homosexual interactions before I met my wife.  However, porn has been a serious issue with my marriage and previous relationships.  Actually, my first marriage ended due to porn.  Back in 1996, I got out of the Army, was going through a divorce, and finding a way in civilian life which put me through a lot of stress and depression.  Many people would have turned to alcohol or drugs.  I turned to porn as a way to cope.  It got way out of hand and lead me down some very dark paths.  I went through counseling for porn several times, but the lack of accountability and the privacy of porn, counseling did not work.  Maybe I didn’t want it bad enough until now.   My wife and I are working through it.  It is not easy for us.  I have had to deal with much anger and tears.  And rightfully so.  I have taken responsibility for what I did.  I have taken steps to disassociate myself from porn and homosexuality.  Counseling is being arranged.  Moving forward I am choosing heterosexuality with my wife.  This has probably opened a can of worms, but this is the last I will speak of this  and start leaving it in the past.