@anita

I was neglected by my mother. She paid no attention to me. My father had a lot of anger. He would always get angry with me. He would yell at me. My parents were divorced and separate. When my father was at work, his daughter (from another woman) who was an adult during my childhood would torture me. Treated me like an animal. I don’t have the heart to talk about the specifics because it’s too humiliating. And when I told my father he didn’t believe me. Left me for years of torture with this monster.

I feel like a representative of the quote, “He who fight with monsters might take care lest He thereby become a monster”. I became the monster that I fought all my life.

I wish I could be loved. But I guess I’m undeserving of love. I finally found someone that loved me and all I did was hurt her. Now I’m all alone again. Maybe I should give up the search for love and just harness my evil.