Dear anita,

I’m not sure what I’m missing. I think they were my excuses. I couldn’t focus on myself very well because I would be focused on my parents, and now all that’s left is to focus on me. Which is a good thing, and on good days I relish the opportunity, but on bad days it feels like a struggle.

I think today is a bad day. I’ve been ruminating over ex bf. I’ve got the group tomorrow and had a panic attack thinking about it, and then it frustrated me that I’m not able to discuss this with my support team there which is what they’re there for. And then I get angry at him and myself (mostly myself) for being in this situation in the first place. I just want to move on but I’m not sure how to.

On a different observation – have I done the first thing I mentioned today? Not feeling okay in myself, so start distracting or thinking about someone else.