Hi anita,

No I don’t imitate her aggression. Not at others especially. I know how it feels like to be shouted at and have or witness fights, so I just avoid any little fight or argument ever as possible with others (but I do fight a bit with mother sometimes as every teenager would do). I only have anger issues with myself. I get angry at myself too often and harm myself.

And I completely got your point you mentioned about my mother not taking consideration of us present through all drama. This was worse because she also kept involving us, making us leave home for days with her more than twice just because their fight got serious at that point. And I’ve also bore the responsibility of ‘good child’ who would support them when they’ll be depressed, who would pick them up first ignoring my own mental health, who would cheer them up no matter how hard it was going in  school or elsewhere, who would always live up to take any responsibility there is to take because my brothers would never do that.

About living for two years,,, I don’t have enough money or support that would allow me to do that and still continue my education without dad’s support.Next two years are my A level’s years, and then I’m planning to get scholarship to a uni in Canada. I think that time period will give me a relieve from all this. But, is there any way you can tell me that will allow me support myself if I move out already? Please do share it

And thank you for your time