Julia,

You said you have never been out of a relationship since you have been 17 yrs old (How old are you now?).  My guess is that you are using men as placeholders that keep you from being lonely, from facing yourself, from developing a richer world of relating to others including yourself.  As you said, you need an ego boost.

My take is to forget about your current relationship with all the second guessing of his words and behavior along with your confusion about how you feel.  Go be with yourself for a while.  Do without guys and do things that enrich your inner world.  Do things with others without the intent of sex and relationships for a while. Be in that uncomfortable place of not having someone in your life so you can grow emotionally.

What do you think?

Mark