Dear Cali Chica:

I will never know the exact thoughts my mother had, it is not like she was honest with me. But the problem with us as adults, retroactively evaluating our parents is how our brain tricked us, naturally, to make believe what was not true to reality. The role of savior, that was how my mind tricked me, so to see value in myself/ to see her seeing value in me.

Do you believe that your savior role was a trick  of your mind and/ or  do you think she really did see you as her savior?

anita