Dear Anita,

I am glad you like that visual, I had a feeling you would.

You are exactly right about the market, and why in his specific field there are limited positions: the need has to arise, someone has to retire, some expansion taking place etc.  As your husband stated, the medical climate is changed these days than say 20 years ago – so it is an even more difficult world.  We shall give it some time and see what happens!

I don’t remember that feeling at all, I am assuming I felt it then.  I have this vague sense that I did, waiting for my father to arrive home.  Being on a flight heading to vacation…

As an adult…at this exact time I do not recall this feeling.  I know it existed, but I can’t pinpoint that anticipatory exciting feeling.

So as far as the wedding I attend with N, I was excited to enjoy it (not the immense anticipatory joy excitement) more of a – let’s go and enjoy this feeling!

At this London wedding, it was exhaustion.  Enjoyed myself in the moment while I was there, but would have been equally (actually more) happy to be home with my dog and Netflix.  I am so so so very burnt out from weddings (I know I don’t have to explain to you why!).  In fact the first summer my now husband and I were together seriously we attending around 8 weddings during our residency training (when we didn’t have many weekends off!).

So at this time, I can not recall the last time I felt a deep down excitement wagging of the tale feeling.