Dear Anita,
I’ll talk to you about something that I don’t really ever talk about. What I do at work. Well not what I do but this is what comes to mind today. I read your last post as I was leaving work. I was only at work for six hours today, not bad at all. And the six hours we did 18 procedures, I gave Anesthesia for 18 patients for 18 procedures. Yep, efficient place. Very. Well oiled machine. Which is my kind of flow.
So This includes me pushing the stretcher of the patient in and out of the room as well, sometimes these patients can be large. It doesn’t even bother me. I never eat lunch, there is no such thing as a lunch break for us. Yes I eat snacks from time to time, fill myself up with granola bars and nuts quickly in between. But no scheduled lunch break ever. Which can definitely get to you on a day like 7 AM to 5 PM. You know I never thought about these things before. But given over the last few weeks I have really thought about my trajectory, the type of job I want in the future, moving away from the idea of myself opening up my own wellness center that is something way in the future not what we are talking about right now.
I thought to myself, it would be nice to perhaps have a desk job, as in my own office, and see patients in the clinic setting. It comes with a different sort of headache but it might be nice not pushing stretchers of patients, it might be nice to actually have a lunch break. It might be nice to work from 8 to 430 every day with a reliable schedule. The job in Southern California would be this way. I would be in an outpatient setting seeing patients, and a clinic, and doing procedures on certain days. I’m not saying it’s better, but today I feel like I got the wind knocked out of me, 18 procedures, 18 patients, and my head is spinning. One may say oh but you only worked from 10 AM to 4 PM. But I feel like I worked 12 hours.
Saying this out loud to you or myself to say oh my God I’m so tired my job sucks. There’s good and bad teaching every job. The benefit of anesthesiology is that I don’t have to deal with any kind of patient phone calls, and this particular position when I am home I am done, there are no nights or weekends. Perhaps however, learning about that Southern California job, it’s been on my mind, scheduled patients, never overscheduled, not an extremely fast paced system, nope not Entirely efficient. It’s funny to hear me say that, someone who tries to be super, but perhaps I feel like maybe for sometime I don’t want to be so super anymore, even at work, maybe it would be nice to eat lunch once in a while – so to speak.
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