Dear Lida:

Reads to me that when you were a child you were made to feel “like an embarrassment.. Disgusting… Incapable. Stupid. Ugly. Ridiculous”. You grew up and think: with a new beginning, “new country, new relationship, new job”, I have the chance of no longer being those things, but instead be worthy, capable, smart. Next what happens is your childhood experience returns.

Most people keep re-living their childhood no matter where they go or what they do. A new beginning brings hope and excitement until you find out life is the same-old-same-old.

This has been  my experience. Is it yours?

anita