Dear Michelle:

On the second and third date you found out that he will be leaving soon and is not likely to return to the US anytime soon. At about that time, you had an electric, passionate experience with him, “When we touch, when we kiss I feel the electricity. I haven’t felt chemistry and passion like this in years”.

“I have separation anxiety… I prefer the unknown.. I don’t want short term but I don’t want to deprive myself of wonderful moments.. out of fear of heartache and fear of the future”-

Maybe the reason for the unusual experience of electricity, chemistry and passion is that you knew that he will be in the country only for a short while so you were temporarily free of the long-term-anxiety. But then you  do want the long term, fear it and want it.

anita