Dear Anita,

Fear is keeping her in charge, your mother, that is. Choose to quit the social butterfly role, and do it, no matter how awkward it feels, and you are making one choice that will bring you closer to releasing that fear

Yes Anita. I read this post and will read again. I made some decisions this morning regarding social butterfly role. As this role has nothing to do with physically spending time with others or going to events. The role is all in the mind. The fact that I even use the term “role” the concept is in the fact that I adopted it as a ROLE to begin with! This social butterfly role is far more than not texting people and not going to weddings – it is the wavelength of my brain and priorities. It is shifting “identity” and it will feel awkward at first. With myself and or others. I experienced some of that today already. On a day I didn’t have plans. Go figure- because it’s mental state.

I felt fear this morning on my run in Central.

I didn’t think it was fear. But reading your post I Kno it was.  It was like feeling like a kid in a big world not knowing my place. Woken up to early showing up feeling vulnerable and exposed. I’ll elaborate more on that later.