Dear anita,

I will not contact him again, that is for sure.

I read sometime ago about attachment theory, i think i am an anxious avoidant, craving for a relationship but scared at the same time. Maybe that is why subsconciously i always choose people that are not available or not good for me, so i can reinforce the belief that everyone eventually is going to abandon me.

I read too that unhealty patterns can change, with help of therapy and all that. But the last time i was in therapy i felt like i overwhelmed my therapist and she sent me to take a break again, because she said she did not know how she could help me, that it seemed i had the answers already. Perhaps back then i was super excited because i got a new job and i saw everything positive and in a constructive way, but i still needed someone to talk to.

Kay