Dear Gaia;

I understand that it wasn’t sexual play, between you and your cousin, that he forced some kind of sexual activity on you, that you didn’t give him your consent, and I learned reading your recent post that it “happened a lot” – I wish it didn’t happen at all and I am sorry you experienced this sexual abuse.

I understand that your experience at home was different when you were very young from what it became later on, as an older child. It was not always the same.

I do remember your story in your 2016 thread, and that you had negative experiences with peers,  classmates, and teachers. And that “being is social situations trigger (your) self loathing”, that you “can’t like yourself” when you’re around others.

Problem is you need healing social situations and relationship/s so to heal from the sickening social situations and relationships that you suffered and still do,  including the social/ sexual situation with your cousin, the social situation with your peers, classmates and teachers, as well as the social situation at home.

anita