Dear Cali Chica:

I am glad you and your sister are closer and having a win-win relationship, helping each other. Excellent! And I am glad your husband was in a good mood Friday. It is probably connected to his ability and choice to share with others (as he did with your sister during dinner recently) about his work place as it is, unlike in the past when he tried to not complain.

Regarding the party I shared about- I socialized a whole lot during the party, was the social butterfly I can be, had a lot of fun. Problem is that I have a difficulty with excitement, it is difficult for me to endure it. It is so because of heavy duty disassociation of childhood, when fear (which is an excitement, or an excitation) was so acute, that it was minimized along with any kind of excitation.

What happens in heavy duty disassociation is that all forms of excitation become uncomfortable, threatening, similar to fear, or associated with fear.

anita