I’m scared I’m regressing back to what it was before. When we met 8 years ago it felt like I had finally been found what I was missing. It was different obviously in early 20s to now, but feel like a lot of me was just our relationship and she was always just herself and changed and made little concessions but was still herself.

I’d never felt right or ‘seen’ growing up. Even though I have a fairly good job and have family and friends (although my parent marriage has now also imploded) I don’t feel normal or enough. The one person who actually saw me and liked me enough to want to spend her life with me is gone now.