Letting go rituals are so powerful. I did one with a balloon. Letting go some deep pains & losses.

Not to point out the codependency . But I think that’s definitely a good entrance point for you to start dissecting & finding support groups & therapy around.

Also learning about attachment styles & attachment trauma. Yours sounds anxious to me. Idk but another thing you might want to consider looking into .

Its going to take a minute to grieve this loss. And that’s normal, it would take a minute.

but though it may not seem obvious right now, working on those things I mentioned above would actually help soothe some of the pain. Knowledge tends to do that..