Just wish I could extend that to the other ‘worries’.

That my parent’s divorce is going to get messy and I’m going to get dragged in. Then that i’m going to have to go through my own divorce as well. (I never even though growing up anyone would want to marry me and now I’m getting divorced at 31). I’m worried that my ex has already moved on now that she doesn’t have me and our relationship keeping her trapped in a falsehood. That I’m not going to find anyone who I relate to as much as her. We won’t have the history and it just wont be enough, that I won’t be enough for someone.

Worried i’m losing it everyday when the reality just keeps hitting. I get distracted by work for a bit or when I first wake up in the morning. I’m convinced a huge part of me just doesn’t want to get over this, feels too big.