Dear Anita,

Happiness on a long term basis means being calm, feeling comfortable inside, to just be.

I feared just being.  Feared I was missing something.  Seemed to good to be true – to stop and pause, not run.

Of course always feeling that I was being chased, even when I wasn’t – of course! After a lifetime of being chased, who wouldn’t.

And yes my father, we don’t talk about him as much – but an integral portion of the toxicity.  My father loud and clear:

“Oh you fool, look at you, never able to slow down – you will never be happy with that way of life!!!”

No, you are wrong father and mother – I will never be happy if I am forever chased, I gracefully exit the marathon.

• This reply was modified 5 years, 2 months ago by Cali Chica.