When it comes to me, my problems about not having physical feelings isn’t about anything like butterflies or heart racing, I know that doesn’t last. What I mean by physical feelings is the feeling of being sure you love someone, being sure you want them, being sure they’re the one. I don’t have that, I only hear it in my mind.

Other than the physical feelings, I feel sure I want a relationship with him and I feel sure I love him.

This is what I know/feel right now:

• When he’s not around, I miss him but not strongly, and if he can’t text me, I’m not upset
• I can openly call him pet names and say I love him without feeling guilty of saying it or feeling scared to be judged
• He’s my first thought when I wake up, and I enjoy talking to him
• I want to see him in person one day and feel as if maybe that’ll help with the unsure feelings
• I’m not 100% sure if I love him
• I don’t get any physical feelings of wanting him around
• There isn’t any spark for me
• I’m not worried about losing him
• I wouldn’t get upset if he somehow became disabled or failed a grade
• I have no physical feelings making me sure I love him
• I can talk about him to people without saying anything bad about him(I couldn’t even if I tried)
• As soon as I get home, I check to see if I have a message from him, and if I don’t, I get a little worried (because usually I have a text from him) but I also know his phone doesn’t charge well and it’s usually that
• I feel comfortable and safe with him

And the list goes on. It’s kind of scattered, I wrote everything I thought of at that time of writing. Does any of that mean anything? Am I just unsure, in love blindly, not in love, neutral, or anything else?