Hey Anita!

Thank you for replying back to me.

So I’m into astrology and I’m a Gemini. When I said that I wanted to become a different person, I mean a person who is confident. Someone who just accepts life in its frustrating yet wonderful paradoxical nature. Sometimes when I go online, I see how people yearn for a better life. That’s what happiness is for, right? You need happiness to thrive to the highest potential you can accomplish. That’s likely part of the reason why I set high standards to get a job and to travel all over the world like I always wanted to. But when you’re part of a system that’s broken for so long, you almost start to lose hope.

Which is why it’s not that simple for me to move out of my house. A mentor of mine once told me that finding a job is a job in itself. You know what, Anita?

I think I just answered my own dilemma. And it’s funny too because I thought about going back to therapy but lately, I’ve been realizing that I have more strength in myself than I realized was ever possible.

To answer your question about the patterns, it mostly ties back to my family. We have a history of not always communicating well, and frankly, I don’t see that changing soon. There’s also the fact that I’m mentioning them again around Thanksgiving time. I wrote a post about them before. I’m just glad they don’t go on this website. We all have different interests.

If I had to give advice to myself, I would just keep being confident and try very hard not to get those things to me. I’ve done things because of other people’s opinions from unliking what I was into to deactivating a social media account. That’s not going to happen anymore.