Thank you anita! True I wasn;’t perfect! And i do not regret anything I did. I suppose it just hurt worse bc I thought I did my best! I really wasnt jealous. And I do not want to carry trust issues into my future relationships. I never guilted him. the only time I have mentioned or listed the things I did for him was in this forum bc you asked. I did those things bc I wanted to. I did not want to control him, but I see how you could get that read on that. In the end, it is an issue of control with me. Someone can leave your for any reason, anytime. It is as simple as: he started seeing her and no longer wanted to see me. She was better for him. I wasnt. It just hurts.

There are no guarantees.