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Dear Anita,
yes NYC. Known to be the greatest city in the world. Not in the middle of nowhere. The land of opportunity and the city that never sleeps – with beauty and energy in its own right.
yes, how easy to under appreciate this when looking for something different.
my husband feels that I may resent us staying in nyc. I have always wanted to live out there. The weather the culture. The focus on outdoors – the ability to spend your time doing these nature oriented activities. Ever since I first visited there I knew I wanted to. I guess I caught the California bug. After my husband and I met San Diego became a special place for us. he too felt he could see himself out there many times in his life – and especially after meeting me.
but hey- we are in Central Park, with abundant beauty around us at least half the week. The proximity to doing things is like no other. I mean you know – you used to live here downtown I recall.
I feel sad deep down inside today. Or confused. Or maybe not sad – stressed. It is hard to differentiate sometimes since I’m so used to feeling distressed. I think you know what I mean. I feel in a way I am mourning the concept of a fresh start or moving somewhere new – somewhere I do love. Maybe – not sure. My innate feelings I don’t always trust, distress is much more complicated for those of us who have been through so much. It isn’t just happy sad mad. It’s deep complicated and tangled.