Dear Anita,
Wow, that’s a lot of threads. I didn’t realize I wrote so many. Thank you for putting in the time to go through them all haha. I want to mention that my current boyfriend is not the same boyfriend that I wrote all my threads about (he is not as toxic as my ex and our relationship is healthy, thankfully). I just wanted to bring that up to clear up any confusion. Also, sorry that I create so many threads. I think I have a hard time relating one problem to another, so when a problem comes up for me again, I just make a new thread. But again, thank you for putting all my threads together it makes it really easy for me to make the connections. I will reply to you on this thread from now on.
And as for the points you made,
1. Thank you for the advice. It is really helpful to listen to what others think I should do. Many people believe it would be best if I end contact with my cousin or at least distance myself. It’s just very difficult for me. I am very afraid of losing her, and even though she is so toxic, she plays a vital role in my support system. I know that may not make sense, but I believe she wants the best for me. She says toxic things to me that make me very upset, but she is also someone who I talk to every day. It’s very confusing for me. I have tried distancing myself from her, but I end up feeling sad. When I talk to her again, I feel happy that I have an important person back in my life again. So I don’t really know how to go about this 🙁
2. Thank you again. I will definitely do this.
3. I will also do this.
4. I will reply on this post from now on, thank you again for putting in the time to help me.
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