Hmmm, lots of anger/resentment the last day or so. I read about 70 pages of this thread, just to keep myself from reaching out to her angrily. It brought me a lot of comfort seeing that others experienced this feeling too. Just angry that it seems to have been so easy for her comparatively. I think she could never contact me again and be perfectly fine with it and here I am pining for her, still. I’m confident I’m at the “no point of contacting” phase though so at least that’s something.

I suppose I’m feeling angry at the world in general too. I feel like I was given a glimpse at what love could be like – after waiting so long for it (I’m in my late 20s) and just as I thought I was getting somewhere it was taken away. Oh well – I know I’ll survive the day like I have all the others. Thanks to whoever may read this!