Hi there. Been awhile. Thanks for your last response. I’ve been trying to not be on here unless I really need somewhere to vent.
I was watching tv tonight and saw a show that really put me back a bit.  Really hit home. Ended up crying again. I miss her so much sometimes. Like now. It hurts so much. I’m sure I’ll be feeling better later or tomorrow. It just sucks that I still get like this. I hate it. Wow. The human heart is something g else. I would still walk through hell for her. It feels like I do that everyday in hopes that she will be there for me when I’m done.  I just want to see her and tell her I love her more than anyone ever can. I know that’s the worse thing I could ever do. Wishful thinking I guess that I would and she would call into my arms.
thanks for listening. I just had to get it off my chest.