Oh, that’s good to know and I’m glad.

It was a job that started only a month ago. I was being trained to be a caregiver for 3 mentally disabled non-verbal women all living in one house. From the beginning, I had expressed my concerns about that position being my first position at the company (I felt they were “throwing me into the deep end” given various circumstances). In short, I said I was not prepared to work three 12 hour shifts in a row this weekend and they said “ok, then we don’t need you”.

My friend blocked me essentially because he did not find the difficulty of our friendship worth it. I do not know how much detail to give you on this. Part of it was that he was attracted to me, and I was not attracted to him. There was an instance where he was questioning me on a lot of things through text related to dating and intimacy and his attraction to me, and I turned him down. I do not know how he actually took this, he is poly and has a few partners, and said that it was easy for him to go back to friend-mode. But somewhere in the conversation I said something that he said made him feel hurt and mistrusting of me. He also kept saying I “misunderstood” his intentions. He also said I was reminding him of his “toxic ex”.

From then on out, he said the friendship was up to me and he was going to withdraw. In every attempt at conversation he talked to me like a robot and would say “I have to protect myself from you because I opened up to you and got hurt”. I started by asking what I could do and if we could talk in person to resolve things (I felt there was a lot of room for misunderstanding through text). He never gave me a clear answer on this. For some reason, this was really frustrating to me and I felt like I was being punished repeatedly by him bringing up “you hurt me, I can’t trust you”.  I expressed this and he only said he didn’t understand. He then said “this is a lot of effort I am putting in for someone who is nearly a stranger to me”… and kept saying “I don’t know you at all, what do you want?”… I mean I do not think we are strangers… I have been to his apartment a fair number of times, I know things about him like a friend would know, I met him summer of 2018.

Anywhere, there is more to all of this that is hard to explain but I can do my best if it would be relevant or helpful.  I act in some pretty strange ways sometimes that would give people reason to fire me and also block me.