anita & Lara,

About being fired, I did know even beforehand that it was not a job for everyone and I was worried I wasn’t a good fit, so in some ways I am not surprised (and somewhere inside I might feel relieved as well).. but the difficulty about this situation for me is the powerlessness I feel. I felt identical when my landlord evicted me, even though I was already looking at other places to live anyway. In both this situations (and sometimes in my relationships) I felt like I was standing up for myself, and in both these situations the response was the other person completely cutting off my power. I essentially feel like my voice was taken away from me. With my ex-landlord I had spoken up about the black mold in the bathroom and the broken dyer, then the next day she gave me a eviction notice, and kept $1,700 of my money and just refused to talk to me about any of it.

I speak up for myself and people just throw me out?