Dear Kat:

In my mind (having read your previous threads), it means that you should attend quality psychotherapy very soon, because you don’t have to live the miserable life you lived so far, and you don’t have to never have a healthy relationship with a man. It is possible for you to increase your low self esteem, to feel better about yourself and to make a better life for yourself.

A better experience of life will take work and time: it will take you beginning your healing process. Part of healing is responding to people who reply to your threads, something you didn’t do yet. Try it, and it may very well work for you.

anita