Hi Anita,

First of all

I think what she meant is that i have lack of understanding my partner as a complex way,  i.e. she said -quote as possible as i can translate- ” you  only know a fraction of me, i am trying to make you understand about me but you imagine what i should be in edited image of mine  because you always do  some thing; when i said about what i thought, like or dislike, you interpret my words into something that what you think or imagine about my thoughts.”

I know that it may sound like a selfish, but  since we keep away on and off from each other  in last years, i tried to read (or understand, i don’t know verb here) his past experiences because i felt  behind since time has passed, maybe she has changed  and i tried to catch what i miss about her  past, because i  know that this was the last shot, may be i have panic at that time.

secondly,

she said about his family issues, i guess her father and mother have some fights. She also said that she has some fear of what if we end up in same situations. I didn’t  thought on this back then, but she always think most negative sides of specific circumstances. for example; when we have small disagrees about what we eat outside, she think this might happen in our marriage. She also have some finished friendship stories  because she can’t give a promise  in  certain future plans.

^^i forget about writing this  in first part;  when we talked about life in later hours before ending date, i asked about what is the memory that you wish forget about it? She replied it, i quote ” not like a memory but there is a process and i am not the main character,   it didn’t happen to me but, it happened around me, this was affecting me in some way, of course we can’t erase it, best we can is that i can see it as a life course”… I think this was me, i didn’t think  deeply at that time,but this was like slapping on my face.  It makes me think that  i did a mistake.^^

Again, thank you replying to me

Serkan