I just need someone to give me their perspective. Jay and I have been a bit distant but he met me for lunch today and it was lovely, I laughed and felt like I always do around him..HAPPY! I was scared to discuss the situation between us so just ended up enjoying his company and keeping it light. So we didn’t touch on anything. Although we haven’t gone all the way because intimacy that deep still scares me. We always used to kiss etc but he didn’t, instead of giving me his hand, he gave me his arm to link. I’m now scared I know I have real feelings for him but he seems to have backed off.  When I got back I messaged him thanks for a wonderful lunch and I would like to talk about where we stood… he said the best thing for my wellbeing was to be friends and not put any expectations on it from his end and if it becomes more then it does. My anxiety is starting to rear its ugly head but I’m trying to breathe… telling myself it was always going to be a slow burner and that is what I initially who didn’t want to rush in and get my heart broken. But now i feel i won’t even get the chance as he seems to have had enough? What shall I do.. I feel panicky but I’m really trying to think it’s ok, I need to let ho of this need to control it in my way and let it be. Breathe. Help?!