Dear Anita,

Sorry for late reply. Okay Anita, I’ll always re-read.  🙂

You alright Anita.. nobody is perfect. Do you think that I’m too jealousy person? Could i cure this mess Anita..? Do you think when i cure this emptiness inside my heart due to my parents diforce, i could be less jealousy..?

Thank you for being ready to always listen my post and emptiness feeling..

why i don’t know about this web years ago.. i hope i could change myself before this all happen.. because he is already feel that i always cause our problem, he is already feel that I’m possessive (like it’s already embedded in his heart and thought).

These few days, i learn to loving him without judgment or without hoping nice reply from him.. i still learn to cure myself..

I also think that it’s useless for suspect him or possessive to him.. because how hard i try to know about him and being possessive, if he had intention, he will do it no matter what.. we can’t prevent those thing, can we? So why i wasting this whole time for think about it.. am i right Anita..?

I already remember when i was a child, this emptiness already exist and i often feel lonely.. sometimes i went to my yard, sat down there and looked into the sky. Actually i also the introvert person and really hard for me to be doing something “friendly” thing or taking care for other people. So that’s  why i always feel amazed at the figure of someone who can take care another people naturally..

Thank you Anita