Anita,

So.  I had uploaded a dating app awhile ago and was looking on it while I was so angry at my ex.  I thought it would help talking with someone.   I ended up about a week ago meeting a guy named Derrick.  He lives 3 hours away.  We were talking multiple times a day and everything seemed really great.  We are both divorced with kids.  And somehow my anxiety took over yesterday.  I had posted something sarcastic online about the month of February being awful and March needs to be better.  He responded with February wasn’t awful-it’s turned out pretty great.  I took it as it was because we met.  I responded with a joking “really why  is that?” and he just responded with “It just is lol.”  The rest of the day he was quiet and he didn’t text last night.

I’m not sure why I got anxious.  Was it the statement? Was it him talking less?  But I feel like here we go again.  And I don’t want to have all these negative feelings.  I don’t understand why my brain is telling me he’s not going to text me again.  I keep saying positive things to myself but I’m exhausted.  I don’t understand why I do this.  I don’t even know if I like this guy.  I’ve never even met him yet!

On a positive note my kids and I are going home for Easter to Florida to see my parents.  My mother and I continue to be getting along really well.  I close on my new condo next week.

Lindsey