With “civil and courteous” I mean that I don’t act like how my violent fantasies say, but I have a reputation for being blunt and straightforward and very genuine I guess, so it’s not like someone can treat me bad and I’ll just say thanks

Maybe people don’t like me at first glance but I can’t change who I am. I already told you how once I was bullied and the adult figures suggested that I was the one who needed to change so not to be bullied anymore basically (disgusting isn’t it?) But I’m done changing or molding myself for others (I know, it’s easier said than done)

Yes dwelling accurately on those episodes is triggering to me but I’ll translate the best that I can our words:

I asked whether the teachers who were going to examinate us at the end of the year were from our school or from another and she basically yelled that they were not from another (exasperated cause it was already said many many times but hey it isn’t my fault if my mind can’t focus) I guess she wouldn’t yell when she has to lick someone ass