Yeah I messaged her again telling her this

“Ok maybe I was a little rash…truth is since you got the guy I have noticed a drop off between us, i’m a dude and maybe he doesn’t like other dudes being friends with his girl, and the less important I felt which is why I been questioning things and the whole summer “I need a break” thing, friends are important to me. I did mean everything I told you before your trip. Maybe in the coming years i’ll reach out and restart things, or  just block my ass. I do hope you’re happy though, that’s all that matters.”

But not heard from her since I said “this will be the last time you hear from me”, which is fine because I don’t expect her to give a shit, she has a guy now and I was more around because she was single and bored I guess and when friends dump me in a text I never reply, just laugh at the text and don’t care, I am sure it’s the same with her. No I wont reach out in the future, I feel better without her in my life because I dunno who the fuck she is anymore. I miss the old her and she’s gone so I atleast have the memories while I go find other people.