Hey @Michelle

It’s so good to hear from you. I was wondering how you were with coronavirus affecting travel etc. Its good to know you are safe and still enjoying your travels. I hope you make it back safely to the UK too

The chat with Jay went beyond my expectations and I’m so grateful for this thread and the advice given. I really could have screwed it up if I didn’t dump my anxiety here first. You are right finding love is always a risk. If we want to be happy and gave that someone next to us to help navigate our way through life we need to be willing to risk it. I obviously have issues still but I’ve take that first leap. I couldn’t agree more having been in a 5 year relationship where I believed I was madly in love and it was the only love I was capable of receiving ti meeting Jay and realising what true love is has been an eye opening experience. I’ll love my ex forever in my own way, he was my first longterm relationship but I didn’t realise the toxicity of it all until now. Until I met Jay a person who makes me feel like I can finally be myself. One who accepts my issues, accepts all the things I hate about myself. He really is worth it even if it doesn’t work out. At least I will not regret not trying. I’m determined to make it work though. Because the love he has shown me is the love we all deserve. It’s the unconditional kind. He shows care and affection when I dont feel worthy of being loved. He continues to even when I took him for granted. He has really changed my perception of love. I was always taken in by the idea of butterflies and sparks and Hollywood type. When you are in a toxic relationship as I was the push and pull always led to those intense emotions. But the steady kind of love with commitment, loving when you don’t want to is the realist one.

When I was broken I realised love itself didnt hurt me. Someone who didn’t know how to live hurt me. I confused the two.

I hope you all find a Jay kind of love/person to show you what love really is. Everyone deserves to experience it.

I love you all too! Thank you xxx