Dear Anita,

I returned to work last week, but I felt too overwhelmed to make a decision about what to do with work. Especially with everything going on right now.

I’m not too great. I found out on Monday that one of my old friends committed suicide :'( She was only 20. I met her when she was 17. She had such a big heart and was so smart. She took her life on the 17th, after 2 previous attempts. She hung herself in the woods :'(

She was a trans woman. I met her as a boy, and watched her become Lucy. She fronted her own band, and her favourite band was Against Me.
Yesterday I was empty and depressed and stayed inside. Last night I started crying.

This morning I emailed all my memories to her Mum and family. And listened to Against Me and cried.
This month has been the worst.

Cat